What If?

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord.“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9

A couple of years ago I went through what I think was one of the hardest moments of my life thus far.  The relationship with the guy that I loved and was engaged to- ended. And I’m not talking about your “average” break up.  I’m talking bullets, police, and jail time. We had been through many ups and downs over the span of years we dated (I’ll save those stories for another time), but in my heart I felt peace and confident about where we were headed. However, about a month before the wedding, I had this nagging feeling that something was going to go wrong. Maybe I was just nervous I thought- but no this was different. The Holy Spirit was pressing on my heart something heavy. After much prayer and fasting I knew that I had to postpone. I made the hard decision of telling him that I didn’t think we were quite ready. We needed a little more counsel to work through some issues from the past and then move forward. Although he was hurt, which I had expected, we decided to try to work through.

Our communication was minimal but I felt ok.  In my mind I said alright Lord- cool- we’ll get some more counseling and then be on our way.

Or so I thought.

A week later I got the call. He had been shot.

I knew I had a feeling that something was wrong. Yet never in a million years did I think it would end like this. My thoughts of how the next steps in this process were going to look were totally different from God’s. His way was definitely different than mine.

But then I asked myself what if the very thing I feared the most (the relationship not working out) was actually the very thing that God wanted to use to display His glory in my life?  Through this heartache I felt His protection and His peace. I experienced His word ministering to the deepest places of my broken heart. And in a way I’d never seen before.

So think about it…..

• WHAT IF that relationship didn’t go as planned because He actually has someone for you who is far beyond what you could ask or think?
• WHAT IF you’re still in that position because there’s someone on your job who needs to see the love of Christ through you?
• WHAT IF that business hasn’t moved the way you planned it because He still wants to infuse your heart with a double dose of humility so you can handle the great things His has on the horizon?

I’d be crazy to say I knew what God was up to in your life.  I do know God’s promises never return void but remember His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts. So the next time your circumstances take you by surprise simply ask yourself What If?

P.S. Thank God my ex is still alive. He was only injured from the shooting. 

Until Next Time!

xoxo

Keisha

@_thenarrowway